Anger--------

I am rather angry at blogger right now. But it isnt road rage anger, more like a 'I sat down to take a dump and find out there isnt any t.p. after I dropped the first bomb over Bagdad' anger. And hell it is not like I am paying for this service, and to get better service I would probably consider paying lol. I am curious, how does this site make money if none of use pay for any of this? Not that I realy care but I am curious haha.

I have been going to the gym now for 4 weeks and I feel great. I have been hitting the weights heavy as I possibly can without a spotter, it can be a little scary doing certain excersies without one. Bench press has to about the most intimidating exercise to do alone, which is what I used to start off my workout yesterday. I started off at 125lbs and increased the weight by 10lbs per set. By the time I finished with this excersies I was doing 156lbs but the reps went from a perfcet 10 to a shakey 6. I got it back up with out to much trouble but I was thinking of trying more but I know my limits and do not want to literally kill myself in the name of vainity. I used to go with the brother-in-law Doug but he is in the navy now so I am back to self motivation and self spoting. Neither of them is easy or fun, I have to MAKE myself go to the gym and I have to cheat a little when it comes to my heavy weights. Cheating isnt bad when done correctly but when done sloppy one can hurt themselves. I see people do it all the time, some guy trying to do a one handed bicep curl with too much wieght bend his back like a palm tree in a wind storm to get the wieght up. Or better yet the guy bench pressing way too much arching his back like a porn star in the throughs of the biggest fake orgasim in history trying in vain to get the bar up to the start position. I chringe everytime I see these guys, I want to tell them they are going to hurt themselves but being a gym rat I know these guys wouldnt listen anyway. Way Macho Man doesnt need advise, but they will need a chiropractor in the near future. I size ppl up all the time and from time to time I am soo rough I am embarassed I even had those thoughts. It happened yesterday in the gym. I see this skinny little white guy about my hieght but 100lbs less doing the same basic workout. He starts his bench at the same weight and to myself I thought," Oh no here we go again, get the ambulance ready." But to my suprise he held his own agaist the battle with gravitey. He was looking a little shakey at the end but nothing that warrented a spotter. Looks can be decieving as we all know, this guy looked thin and weak wristed but turns out he can lift with the big boys lol.

I have to go back to the doctor today to speak with him about my blood test resuls. If I said I wasnt nervous I would be lieing, I dont think I have anything wrong with me but you never know. I am hoping it is just a little talk about what the results show and a hand shake on how healthy I am. But no matter, its all good and no matter what happens I will be back tommorow. I might have to change my eating habits a bit, I do like to eat shit from time to time and that can be bad in the long run. And I am sure my drinking cannt be all that good either lol. I will keep everyone abreast to what doctor 'Turn Your Head and Cough' says, wish me luck!


To end my blog with your Moment of Zen, remeber to laugh a little and rember: