I went to the crazy doc yesterday to talk about a few things. And ended up getting the same meds my son is on, Vyvance. He gave the lowest dose to just see how it works for me. I have an appointment in 4 weeks to review things. I started it this morning and so far so go. It seems to be helping the most with keeping my over active day dreaming to a more controlled place. I think alot of my issues have stemmed from my mind adding things to a situation that were just unfounded. I am also hoping it helps me juggle work and school better. I have been so mentally checked out that I have been putting things off and putting them off for way to long. I am going to organize myself and get this shit done.
I am taking the summer off from school just so I can de-compress from everything. I have high hopes for salvation in the form of a bottle. And one that does not come with morning regrets and a pounding head. I have joined the masses in the medicated nation. And I am ok with that.
But on a funny note, when I was walking into the office I saw that someone seemed to have an issue with the sign or docs in the place. To the point they decided to run up on the lawn. I hope it was a drunk driver and not some disgruntled crazy person:
So here is to a new day with a new out look. I am also putting the smokes down, after today I am trying to do without them. My old friend is going back to that old place with hopes of only seem them once in a blue moon. You can give up smoking but smoking never gives you up.